alliehughes7

I have a lot to write about so bare with me…

As some of you might know already, I had to have emergency gallbladder surgery in November of 2010. I was in the process of moving to Austin, Texas when this happened. I had my surgery and continued my move to Texas. Everything was good at that point. I’m not going to lie, I was more that happy that I could eat what I wanted without feeling like I was going to die. It was awesome. From about November 2010 to April 2011 I went through quite a bit. I dated a couple jerks and gained about 10 pounds. Not a huge deal. 10 pounds should be easy to loss, right? Well, even at 175 pounds (I’m 5′8″) one of the guys I dated told me I needed to lose weight.Technically I did, but I was by no means “fat”.

In between this time, I met my current boyfriend Danny. I met him through my roommate, Rosalia. We started dating in April and have been together ever since. He’s without a doubt the best boyfriend I’ve ever had and helps me with everything that I need. He’s a college graduate and has a great job (he’s a surveyer for the state of Texas) and he’s keep motivated to accomplish my goals.

Fast forward to June 2011. I find out that my financial aid at the college I was going to wouldn’t cover my next semester tuition and housing. The only thing I could do was drop out and find an alternative. I had established myself in Austin. I felt like moving back to Ohio wouldn’t be the right option. So since I was a security officer for a national company in Ohio, I thought I would take my chances and apply for employment with them. I ended up working at a condominium in downtown Austin for them (where I currently work). I had to move in with someone I didn’t know temporarily until Rosalia’s lease was up so we could get an apartment. I started taking online classes for Medical Assisting as well.

In September 2011 Rosalia moved into our new apartment and I continued to work and she continued to go to school. Everything seemed to be going well. Once I started working at the condos is when the weight gain started…

..I have gone from 164 (my lowest weight on this site) to 207. I am beyong embarrassed that I am over 200 again. My size 34 pants are so tight that I am dangerously close to having to get the next size up. I don’t fit in my size 10s anymore and my 12s and super tight. My coworker is overweight and she wants to eat out for lunch everyday. I know that’s not a good excuse, but she always makes me feel back when I tell her I don’t want anything. It’s hard. We work downtown so there are all kinds of great restaurants nearby. It’s so strange for me, because in the past, weight loss hasn’t ever been that hard for me. My boyfriend, who is also overweight, eats a lot and loves to go out a try new restaurants. I know I should just go and order something healthy, but for some reason I can’t. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I NEED HELP!

I think the hardest thing for me was for my parents to see me like this. I had not seen them since December 2010 and they just came down to visit a few weeks ago. My dad (who is over 280 pounds) told me I needed to lose weight. I’ve grown up with him telling me I need to lose weight, even if I was 150 pounds. When I hear my dad say things like that, it justs makes me want to do the opposite.

I also forgot to mention that my boyfriend is Mexican. Which is a huge change for me. His family is a traditional Mexican family. Lots of food and they expect you to eat it or they get insulted. I love my boyfriend and his family, but it just help. I cringe when he tells me that they invited us over for dinner even though I want to see them.

I just want to apologize to all my buddyslim friends. I disappeared because I was too proud to admit that I needed the help and support. I was being selfish. I need the support and I should of been her to offer my support as well. I hope you all can forgive me. I am ready to get this weight off once and for all! No more excuses and no more weight gain!